The truth behind mental health

*** wind blowing ...... I'm mentally exhausted....... Everyday I wake up feeling empty but tired. Why was I feeling that way ?  I'm not sure about the answer . Am I going to be feeling this way every single day ? That's what I thought to myself . ** Sigh...... I just want this to all end . Just want everything to go . Just want to rest in peace .  Recently someone said to me I look much cheerful now . But as her words sank deep  in my heart , I knew I was hiding the truth. I knew I was just pretending to be happy . I knew I was wearing a mask . I knew it but ......  I don't have the courage to tell her .....  Why ? Am I ashamed to admit that I am mentally not well and exhausted?  Should I tell the truth? I don't know ....... " Someone please help me " , I said to myself . I keep dragging myself everyday to be cheerful and happy .  But was it all worth it ? Was it all worth my time ?  Should I choose to wear a mask or should I show them that I am depressed

 Courage to change by Sia  Her songs are really awesome and there's nothing to compare with .  Courage to change indicates about  having the courage to change the situation.  Sia also mentioned that we are not alone in this situation as we can do anything together.  This statement really speaks to my heart , giving me motivation to keep going and to never give up .  Love this song . ( Listen to The Greatest - Sia ) too . 

 Does anyone knows how to stop pulling their hair ?  Well, that's one tough question for me to answer my friend. Hi guys ,  I've been pulling my hair since I was in primary school . I had a condition called trichotillomania . Back then , I keep pulling my hair everyday. There were bald patches on my head but primary school was not that bad . Not many people make fun of me .  But as I advanced to high school , many male students started calling me names . They called me " pulau " , "botak " and etc .  I was humiliated right in front of everyone. I ran away from the boys but they kept following me calling me mean names .  I started thinking that I was ugly and that I was a peculiar person.  It wasn't long until I went into depression. I began cutting myself all over my hands . I started to feel like life was not worth living anymore . I felt like ending my life at that very time .  And so it begins . I went to see the school counsellor and they gave me the