15/4/2022

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 I couldn't force myself to feel what I want to feel . There weren't any choices to what I should be feeling . 

Right now I am feeling a little bit down . I don't know the reason why I felt this way . 

I have got to sit in my dad's office for long hours at the reception area . I feel so tired because of me lacking sleep . I couldn't sleep yesterday . It was horrible . My lacking of sleep makes me feel more worse than ever .

I felt irritated and tired . The worst thing is my mental health state . I felt like breaking down and cry but I just couldn't do it . 

I also felt like resting in a hospital cause I know I will have a good rest there . 

However , I can't let myself think about it. I can't bring myself to that position again . 

I am done with myself. I am so done . I just want to end my life . I am done thinking and I am done with my life . 

I hate myself . 

Comments

  1. Lai Tee @ GraceMay 1, 2022 at 7:06 PM

    Lack of sleep can be causing all the above that you mentioned, hope you get good quality sleep so things and life go well again. Take good care!

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  2. Joy (Kim Eun Ji)May 23, 2022 at 4:07 AM

    Ooo. Ok

    ReplyDelete

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