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Anxiety

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Anxiety is a feeling of fear, dread and uneasiness. For example, anxiety can include taking a test, difficulty at work or before making an important decision. Symptoms of anxiety can include excessive worrying, fatigue, restlessness, difficulty sleeping and etc. Here are a few ways to deal with anxiety: Deep breathing exercise can help with anxiety. Just inhale deeply. Hold your breath then exhale. Next, grounding method. Try to focus on your breathing, then identify 5 things you can see, 4 things you csan touch, 3 things you can hear, 2 things you can smell and 1 thing you can taste. Regular exercise is also effective in reducing anxiety too. Here are several types of anxiety disorders: - Panic disorder - Generalized anxiety disorder - Social anxiety disorder - Specific phobias - Agoraphobia - Separation anxiety -Selective mutism - Medication-induced anxiety disorder At the end of the day, anxiety can effect in your everyday life if not treated properly. It is important to deal with a

Embarrassed

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 It was a beautiful day on Saturday. I was getting ready to go to the supermarket to get some groceries done. As usual, I have to walk to the supermarket cause I don't have a vehicle. It will take at least half an hour for me to reach the supermarket. Not to mention the heavy traffic where people are just squashing against you to get their groceries too. I set off early that day along with my grocery bag. I wore a fine cap, a t-shirt and jeans. The day was too good to be true or maybe not. We will never know what will happen on the way. Which is true. As I was walking my way to the supermarket, I was thinking about getting a cup of coffee. I just can't wait to taste it ! Suddenly, I fell into the sewer and both of my legs got stuck. People were astonished to see me stuck and they started giggling among each other. I just wanted the ground to open up and swallow me! After some time, I managed to pull myself together and freed myself from the sewer. I checked myself and there wer

Great Are You Lord

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Broken

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I am broken and down from time to time. I kept telling people that I am fine but I was not fine .I lied to them because I did not want to burden them nor I want them to worry about me. However deep inside of me I am hurting a lot. I just could not have the courage to tell them about how I am feeling.  I have been battling with this for a long time now. I wished I could enjoy life as before. Life back then was very fine and lovely. I missed that experience a lot. If only I can turn back time.... However life must go on even though I much hated myself now. I do not know how to love myself. There are many ways to love myself but I just could not do it . I kept pondering . " What is wrong with me?"  I kept asking myself . As I kept wondering, I thought to myself that I could not do this anymore. " I want to end my life " I said to myself .  In my haste, I quickly round up all the pills I could find and ate all of them . In a few hours later I felt drowsy and weak . I ca

Unpredictable

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I was wanted for unknown reason but I guess I have something in me that they wanted. Something strange but something that they wanted to experiment me. They kept chasing me till my house. When they arrived, one guy sprayed some sort of gas to make us faint. My family and I quickly went up to my room. After that, I went out to check to see if those guys had entered my house. And you know what ? They did !   When I saw what has happened, in my haste, I went up to my room and bolted the door tightly. They came up to my room and started banging the door demanding us to open it. My family and I quickly creep around the corner of my room. We were having butterflies in our stomachs. I was really worried of what they would want from me. I just can't seem to figure it out. Subsequently, they managed to get the door open and they seized me by my hand and took me with them. My parents were screaming on top of their voice. The men brought me to their truck and placed me inside. 

Blinding lights

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Crisis helpline

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If you ever feel down or need someone to talk to , contact :  1. Befrienders KL = 03-76272929 ( 24 hours )  2. Talian Kasih = 15999 3. Talian HEAL ( 8am - 12 am Midnight ) = 15555  4.Buddy Bear helpline= 1800-18-2327 ( Mon-Sun, 6pm-12am ) 

Being Vulnerable

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I have never felt so vulnerable in my life . Hearing voices from the boys calling me mean names makes me feel shameful. I kept telling them to stop but they wouldn't stop. They kept calling me "bald " and " island " .  It all started when I pulled my hair. I have the tendency of pulling my hair cause I think too much . The more I think  the more I pulled my hair. It has become a habit . At the age of 13, I was being diagnosed with depression. My grades started to drop and I kept harming myself. I also tried to end my life numerous of times . It was really difficult for me to cope back then. My parents brought me to see the psychiatrist and psychologist. Things were slowly coming back to normal. However, I dropped back into the hole again.  I started feeling depressed again . From harming myself to being suicidal. Everything went upside down.  Everyday I felt down and lonely. Thoughts kept coming into my mind saying that I am better off dead. Those were the chall

My hamster

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Dandelions by Ruth B

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What Is It Like To Live With Mental Illness ?

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What is it like to live with mental illness? This question runs through my mind. As a person who has been diagnosed with depression, I can say that living with mental illness can be quite tough. Almost 1 in 5 people experience mental illness. Mental Illness should not be a taboo to talk about. Awareness on this subject should be important to reduce the stigma so that people with mental illnesses would be able to get the help that they needed to recover. Dealing with negative thoughts is difficult for a person living with mental illness . The reason behind it is because people living with mental illness tend to believe whatever their thoughts are trying to say to them. It is even worse when it comes to suicidal thoughts. Suicidal thoughts are not easy to brush them away. Having suicidal thoughts most of the time can be really challenging. Thoughts will come saying that you are not enough and that it is better for you to end your life .  In addition to that, hearing voices that aren'